alarms

alarms are scary. even when I'm already awake I hate the sound of it. It just gives me this feeling, almost of horror. I guess it has something to do with the displeasure of waking up being associated with that sound. Now I can't stand it.

that is a just a tidbit for you.

thanks.bye.

I'm going to break the rules.

I tag Rachel too.

To My Loyal Fans

Alright, so I just thought I should let all of my loyal followers know that the last post was the 100th post. Thanks for sticking with me these last few months. I have the best fans in the world. ;)

But really, I just remembered that I didn't tag anyone for the Find-you-fourth-album-then-get-the-fourth-picture-then-put-it-on-here-and-say-something-about-it-then-tag-two-other-people-to-do-the-same-thing game.

SO. I tag Quinny, and Baird.

Oh Stephanie...

Ok so this silly girl named Stephanie tagged me in a little teensy weensy feensy game. It is called, "Find your fourth album, take the fourth photo from it, post it on here, say something about it, then tag two other people to do the same thing." Yeah, the name needs some work. I hear the committee is meeting soon. Their meeting has a name too, its going to called, "We're just getting together to find a new name for the find-your-fourth-album-take-the-fourth-photo-from-it-post-it-on-here-say-something-about-it-then-tag-two-other-people-to-do-the-same-thing game." So yeah, they really need some help.


ANYWAY. here it goes. my photo.




Well, see Rachel, Faith and I were having a photoshoot while we were bored in Pennsylvania. This is what we do for fun. I love my family.

the end.

I don't really feel like trying to sum this one up in one thought by giving it a title.

Its just one of those days. I need something, someone. I need a good hug. I need a caring word or two. I need someone. It's so weird being away from my family and realizing what true love is. I know my friends love me, and I know that my friends care about me, but they can't love me the way my mom loves me, the way my sisters or brothers love me, the way my daddy loves me. They can't be with me like people who've known me for years can be. I'm not trying to cheapen any relationships that I have with people here at school, but its just different. Family love is different than friend love, and right now I'm feeling a serious deficit of family love. I just want my mom to rub my back. Thats honestly all I've wanted for a few weeks, for someone to rub my back. Because if someone rubs my back, I can close my eyes and pretend like I'm at home, in my room, on my bed, with my mom. Her hand rubbing my worries away, and her words soothing my ears.

Why don't I appreciate things until I don't have them anymore?

Mousetrap

No matter what happens. No matter who tries to mess things up. No matter how the devil tries to interfere, the Lord always wins. You can't mess up his plan. He knows what will happen. He can turn our dirty rags and sinful acts and evil doings into something that will give Him glory. Even in ancient Rome when the Christians were horribly persecuted, God was there. He knew what he was doing. He was working in each one of those Christian's lives. Even in the Salem Witch Trials when so many people were being so sinful and doing horrible things, He noticed. He was in control. I was thinking of it like this: You know the game mousetrap? It starts when you set off one thing and then it sets off another which sets off another which sets off another. Until in the end the basket falls and traps another player's piece. Well, from the beginning of time God has been setting up his game of mousetrap. Its like the other artist blog that I had a while ago. God sees it all as one big picture. He is always in control of what is going on. Unlike in the game mousetrap, God has control through the whole thing. He doesn't have to change anything because he is making it happen and he knows EXACTLY what He's doing. I think he likes to see our reaction. We're all mad that something bad is happening and then something else happens and then it keeps going until we see it all. Then we're like, "Ahhhh, yeah... thanks God, I got it now." And we start to rejoice. So next time something bad happens, or your life doesn't seem to be going that great. Look to the Lord, trust in Him. In the end it will all work out ok, and He'll get the glory.

And that's exactly what we want.

Jonah

If someone came up to you and said I'm running away from God, depending on your religious beliefs, a non-christian would probably say something like, "Sweet, I don't care." If you were in danger, and you knew the person with you was running away from their Lord you probably still would not think that all the danger could be because of them.

When Jonah runs away from the Lord he tells the people who's ship he boards that he is running away from his Lord. They don't really care that much, so they let him on. When the ship starts to rock and the water starts to rise and the whole crew is put in danger there is nothing left to do. The people cast lots and the lot falls on Jonah.

So they asked him, "Tell us, who is responsible for making all this trouble for us? What do you do? Where do you come from? What is your country? From what people are you?" He answered, "I am a hebrew and I worship the Lord, the God of heaven, who made the sea and the land." This terrified them and they asked, "What have you done?" (They knew he was running away from the Lord, because he had already told them so.) - Jonah 1:8-10 -

They were terrified as SOON as they heard that he worshiped this God who had made the earth. They didn't have to ask about his power, if Jonah's God had created the earth they knew that He was powerful. They knew that Jonah's angry God could destroy them all.

Why doesn't anyone understand this anymore?