Warning: What you are about to read is confusing, jumbled, and random. Read at your own risk.
The other day I looked in the mirror and thought, "I look better WITHOUT my makeup."
I never thought I'd be at this point.
I'm dumb. I've been messing up a lot. I'm sorry. I feel ashamed even addressing you. I am not worthy to speak your name. But despite my stupidity and shame you've blessed me with the knowledge that I AM beautiful without altering my face. I am beautiful because of who you made me to be and because you shine through me.
I'm so privileged and honored that you chose me to shine through. Please help me. I'm so so horrible and so so not worthy of You.
I can't believe you've chosen me. I honestly have no idea why. I'm so incapable. I'm so disobedient. I'm so sinful. I'm so dumb. I'm so human. You could do all of this yourself, but you let us help out. You give us the blessing of being in a relationship with you and getting to do your work here on earth.
What a blessing, Lord!
Forgive me. Take away my shame. Lift my eyes. Get my head out of this world and into your Spirit. You are a wonderful, loving, omnipotent, perfect, beautiful Father. Oh, God, thank you!