My Precious Victor Jesus

How many times was I told to keep my eyes ahead when I run?  So why am I looking around now, when the prize is so much greater than coming in first?

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles.  And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. -Hebrews 12:1

I so often look around the world on my own to find things.  I look for provision, happiness, a husband, satisfaction.  There is nothing more important at this time than simply looking ahead and running the race that God has set out for me.  God's arms are stretched out wide in front of me, and I should be sprinting to them.  I should long for my Jesus so much that I can't stand my human body that keeps me from getting to experience Him fully.  Yet I dwell in this body happily and I feel satisfied in my popularity and beauty.  I feel fine just going through my day without even once speaking the most precious name I know.  I feel perfectly okay without speaking the words that could save a life from eternity away from the Father.  I am satisfied with myself when I sing well and make a few people smile.  I should love Jesus so much it makes people confused.  I should be so obsessed with His glory that people wonder what in the world my purpose in life is.  I should long for more of Him so earnestly that there is no mistaking His hold on my life and my heart.  I should be running so fast and so hard for Him that the things that may be important and impressive and satisfactory to the world are only a blur in my peripheral vision because I am running so fast and so focused toward my precious victor Jesus.