Monday, September 14, 2009

I'm Not Doing Anything Wrong

This is going to sound really stupid, but I figured something out today. I don't know my future. I have no idea what my life will look like in even 3 years. I have no idea where I'll live, if I'll be single, if I'll have a job, where I'll have a job, what I'll be doing, what I'll be aiming for. Its all dark in the future. Some people know where they're going. They know they feel called to be a missionary, or a musician, or an artist, or an actor, or a Young Life Staff member, or an engineer, or a stay-at-home mom, or a business person, or a teacher. Some people can see that clearly and know without a single doubt that God is steering them directly toward one specific thing.

I used to feel like I was doing something wrong because I didn't know. I felt like I was not being faithful enough, or I wasn't praying enough, or I wasn't loving people enough, or I wasn't trusting the Lord enough. How silly is that?! God is simply catering to my personality. Some people can know all that they are going to do and still be able to serve God in the moment, and some people wouldn't be able to focus on the here-and-now if they knew where they were headed (thats me).
I almost feel blessed not knowing where my life is going. I don't have to worry about it. I do what God is telling me to do right now and thats all I need. He'll show me what I need to see in time, but without knowing where I'm headed its so much easier to serve the Lord right now! Its so much fun. Its so rewarding.

I'm not doing anything wrong. God just knows me better than I know myself.
*picture taken by: //bwr*

1 comment:

  1. Three years after this post, I was in school, studying Music Education, and dating a wonderful man.