My everything was falling apart. I was getting ready to leave for school, and that killed me. I couldn't imagine having to start over. I had done that before, and I hated every moment. Thinking about losing everything familiar to me made me want to crawl under my covers and hide from the world. It was a scary place and I wasn't ready for it. I wrote this in my journal on April 15, 2008:
What do you do when all that you thought was true starts to fall apart?
What do you do when all that used to seem permanent is fading away?
What do you do when you cannot rely on earthly things to remain unchanged?
You turn to the one who is true.
You turn to the one who is forever and never fading.
You turn to the one who does not change.
There is only one thing that will never leave you, never forsake you, never drop you, never let you down, never fail you, never lie to you, never hurt you, never turn away from you, and that is the Lord God Almighty. He is constant, powerful, omniscient, amazing, beautiful, and mighty. He can be relied on.
Turn me around, pick me up,
Undo what I've become.
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace.
And he didn't fail me. It still holds true.
*picture taken by: Pink Angel*