This is what I have right now:
1. My computer.
2. Some clothes. (enough until tomorrow)
3. My bedding
4. Shower stuff.
5. Some food.
That is all that is in this room. It echoes in here. Everything is the same color, cream, and both of the other matresses are empty. I hate sitting in here at night. I feel lonely enough right now, but last night was horrible. I was taking a shower and when I got back in my room, I couldn't stop crying. Without all of the distractions I couldn't help but think about the people I already missed and the people I would miss even more very soon. I still can't help but think about it. It kills me. I called one of my friends who had already left to have some company, but for the first 15 or 20 minutes of our conversation all I wanted to do was cry. For how much I missed him, for how much I missed Kim, for how much I am going to miss Brooke. For how much I'm going to miss everyone else here. It kills me. It is so much easier to take my mind off of things when I have other things around to keep my occupied. Right now all I have to keep me occupied is some material I need to study, my computer and these white walls. Empty white walls. They make me cry.
I think I'll paint them green.
picture taken by: 4ndre Solli
I'm sorry about this Katie :( I empathize with you, although I admit I do not know exactly how you feel. I wanted to compliment you, though, on your beautiful writing. I don't know what it is I like so much about the contrast between white and green... And how green is a color that is so full of life... :) Very cool. I hope you're feeling better! You all will be back together again in no time!
ReplyDeleteoh my gosh i haven't read your blog in so longgg! =(
ReplyDeletei'd rather be in a blank room with empty white walls still at wingate right now.