It is really hard when the person you love most in the world loves someone else most. Someone who's most love should be you. Someone who acts like you are, someone who talks like you are, but never really says that you are the person they love most. Someone like that. I love her most. More than any other person I know. But she loves someone else most. She has someone else who she thinks understands her most. She has someone else who she wants to spend time with more than me. She has someone else who she laughs with more. I don't dislike the other person, it just hurts to see her say that the other person is the one who understands her more than any other person on this earth. I know thats jealousy, but I can't help it. I want to understand her. I do understand her. But she doesn't seem to think so, obviously. I wish I was better than I am at understanding her.
I'm never who I want to be in anyone's life. Once again, I sound depressed, but I write when I'm sad, so unfortunately, those who read this get the short end of my emotional rollercoaster.
This just sucks sometimes.
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