It's so hard for people to stay away from planning for everything. Right now I'm stressed because I still have books to buy, my classes are crazy, my major is insanity, I just wasted two semesters doing nothing, and my personal life is a bit frustrating as well. I want to just plan all of this and make it go away by looking at things and putting them into a logical format. I want to get rid of what-ifs and maybes and make sure everything is lined up. I can't do that though. I can't plan for my life, there will be things thrown at me that I could never plan for. I want to be able to fully surrender my life to Christ once and be done with it. But that just does not happen. Everyday single day, every single moment, I have to pray that the Lord will take this day from me and make it His. I have to pray that he'll take away my major to make it His. I have to pray that he'll take away my personal life, my classes, my books, my time, my money, and make all of that his.
I must become nothing while You become everything.
I put this in my blog because God often surprises us with scripture when we least expect it...it might encourage you as well:
ReplyDelete“You will show me the path of life;
In your presence is fullness of JOY…”
~Psalm 16:11
We need not worry because God shows us where to go. His plan is ALWAYS a million times better than our own and he will bless us in the satisfaction of being in Himself. Love the Lord more and more everyday, Katie! It's not easy. I suck at loving God. Yet his love and his grace are new to me every morning, whether I choose to take it or not. I don't get life, but I might as well try to trust God in while unraveling the mystery.
I love you and I will pray that the Lord will make his will known to you.