Mind racing. Heart throbbing. Hands trembling. Eyes watching. Sometimes I feel so juvenile. Why do I feel like this? I should be more mature about it all. I shouldn't be so silly. I want to be real. I want to be genuine. I want to be deep. I want to be open. It's hard when the other person doesn't. The other person seems so closed, so unwilling to let anyone know them, so scared to put themselves out there, so hard to read. This person is unlike anyone I've ever met. I'm usually good at predicting how people will react, but this one is different. How am I supposed to relate to that? How am I supposed to get to know that personality? No matter how closed this person may seem, my heart still jumps, my eyes still widen, my thoughts still scatter. I don't even understand myself in the situation.
I'm still nervous.